can you feel my love?

mia; we share the same name, just the way we literally share the same braincell. i want you to know i love you, and i truly could not be happier than i am with you. thank you for truly treating me with such love and care. i promise to cherish for the rest of my life. i love you, mia. so so much do i love you. and as time grows, i know i'll only love you more and more.

aiden; i love you. i cannot express to you in enough words how much i love you and appreciate you. i was a bit scared to talk to you at first, but now i simply adore you like no other. you have such a comforting and warm energy that i could never get tired of. you deserve so much love, and i am determined to give you as much of my love as i can. i love you, so much.

haven; no matter how bad we are at texting, i truly cannot thank you enough for being an angel from above. i'm not sure what i would do without our endless laughter. thank you for being so kind and lovely. i love you hehe

firenze; i believe you'll always be an important part of my life. no matter what happens and where we go, i want you to know i will always care for you and love you. no matter how long we go without talking, i am always here for you. thank you for being so kind and loving. i truly appreciate you. i love you.

bethie; you are always so kind to me, so sweet. i can never thank you enough for being so uplifting and caring. i have never seen someone give me so much love before. you truly are a ray of sunshine, and i can never thank you enough for being so bright. i love you sunshine.

tayler; no matter how busy we may get, my love for you will not fade in the slightest. you make me feel safe and comfortable. you have such a nice presence, and it's always nice talking to you. i love you, chart twin. we truly are chaotic, but we're so cute hehe i love you.

she asked ' you are in love what does love look like' to which i replied 'like everything i've ever lost come back to me'.	stay soft, it looks beautiful on you.	be careful of all the things you lose in someone's mouth when you love them.
when you are here everything is wild.	there is you and you. this is a relationship. this is the most important relationship.	cry wild. you have probably never cried wild. but, you know what doors feel like. you have an intimacy with doors that is killing you.
there are feelings. you haven't felt yet. give them time. they are almost there.	your heart is the softest place on earth. take care of it.	getting yourself together. what about undoing yourself.
i am your friend. a soul for your soul. a place for your life. home. know this. sun or water. here or away. we are a lighthouse. we leave. and we stay.	if the ocean can calm itself so can you. we are both salt water mixed with air.	in our own ways we all break. it is okay to hold your heart outside of your body for days. months. years. at a time.

ELECTRIC

truly the light of the world, you are such an angel. i trust you with my life, and i know that no matter what you will be there. i will be there too. you deserve someone who will love you, even on the days where you don't. i will love you.

my world could feel upside down, and you'd still make it upright. how was the world granted such an angel? how was i granted such an angel? the world should hold you carefully, gently. the sun could never compete with how bright you are. how could i ever thank you? you are home. you are light. you are love. i will love you, hold you, care for you. i will love you.

and what if i write of you. is that more love than you can handle.	the most gorgeous thing on a human being. vulnerability.	put some salt in that honey. warm it up. heal.
you blush like an ocean in love. wild with blueness.	even if you are a small forest surviving off of moon alone. your light is extraordinary.	the warmest light is your body.
some words build houses in your throat. and they live there. content and on fire.	chemistry is you touching my arm and it setting fire to my mind.	i look for you in the middle of the light. in the west of the day. in the warm memory of the water.

you.
the weight.
rose cinnamon.
dark honey.
the clothes you wear on your mouth.
the warm smoke in your legs.
a quiet quilt.
a mason jar (for moon).
an easy laugh brushed with oil.
time.
the light left over.
some music in your hair.
you.
— things you bring to the ocean at night

you are a story.
do not become a word.
one word.
because you want to be loved.
love does not ask you to be nothing
for
something.

WE FELL IN LOVE IN OCTOBER

sweet angel, you are more than the world could offer. you are bright, sunny days that make you warm inside. you have taken such a place in my heart, in such a short amount of time. how was i granted such access to be around someone so lovely? someone so charming? the sun shines just for you. you are my own light, my own sunshine. even on the days where it rains, you make the world beam in jealousy. i love you, angel. you make my head spin in adoration, in love. don't think you are worth any less.

the hard season will spit you through.
do not worry.
you will bleed water.
do not worry.
this is grief.
your face will fall out and down your skin and there will be scorching.
but do not worry.
keep speaking the years from their hiding places.
keep coughing up smoke from all the deaths you have died.
keep the rage tender.
because the soft season will come.
it will come.
loud.
ready.
gulping.
both hands in your chest.
up all night.
up all of the nights.
to drink all damage into love.

SINCERITY IS SCARY

i'd risk the world for you. you do not deserve to suffer. i hope i can at least make you feel welcomed, feel loved. you are my world. i am comfortable around you. i love you.

i wish to take you to heaven, holding you around me like i created an angel's wing just for you. i wish to take you home, my roof right above your head that has been filled with love. i wish to take you with me, wherever i go i want you there. i wish to always be there. i wish you to always be there too. i wish you could feel my heart, and how it beats so beautifully for you. you were made so perfectly for me. i love you.

she was the color of evening husk and salt.
i wore my voice with her sometimes.
my fragrance
others.
she was a beautiful place to bare my legs.
night my countries.
and
eat the hot winter.

— thaw

SUNKISSED

you are nothing but pure sunshine. i swear, the sun shines just for you. you are sunflowers growing in the dirt, soaking up the sun with all their might. the sun tends to even get envious of your bright soul. you deserve so much love, so much care. you were made so beautifully, the world truly is brighter with you in it. i love you. never forget just how much love you are made of.

what will your eyes do with me
when they are done.
will they lay me
in the tender flesh behind
the sun.
fold me into
your memory's back.
keep me
a
running
water down your arms.

— where

the world seems to glow and feel lighter with you around. the stress, the hell, the suffering; it leaves my body just from simply talking to you. no matter how i may feel, you make the weight so much lighter. you are an angel, truly shining over me. you have made breathing feel lighter, feel less heavy. you are so special, so loving. you are what keeps the angels singing at night. i love you, with all i have to offer.

you are not a mistake. you are too many exquisite details to be a mistake.	your soul is inflamed. good. pay attention. find water. come inside.	you are a sea of light. open your eyes. see yourself.
if she is warm let me know her in the morning.	your hands pouring sky all over my bed. what language is that.	fall apart. please just, fall apart. open your mouth. and hurt. hurt the size of everything it is.
flower work is not easy. remaining soft in fire takes time.	expect sadness like you expect rain. both cleanse you.	i am a silk field of vulnerability.

love, at every opportunity you are given. be less afraid. embrace each day (none are promised). cry when you need to, it'll make you feel better. you were put on this planet to feel every feeling you could, do that. everything works out in the end, i promise.

LIKE I NEED U

you, are so exquisitely beautiful. so wonderful, my heart aches in a way i can no longer name. you are windy warm days after the rain, the air feeling healed after crying so much. you are the feeling of knowing you're safe, of knowing you have someone to confide in. angel, the world has nothing on you. you are more than what people may make you out to be. feel. breathe. heal. you are allowed. i love you, so much.

here, kiss me let me give you the city i have been carrying in my mouth.	lover, bring all your honey and all your hurt.	tell me all the stories that start in your smile and end in your eyes.
love, you wouldn't believe all the places i thought i would find you.	be careful how you choose to love people, don't destroy them, don't destroy yourself.	sweet child, dance into the light. happiness is wating for you.
and then my soul saw you and it kind of went "oh there you are. i've been looking for you."	and it felt like two people meeting each other, after an entire lifetime of not meeting each other.	and i'll try to make the parts that i find, happy. because you make me happy. so much.

you can try and hold me back. build your damn walls, pack sandbags along the edges and yell at the clouds and the rain and the sky to stop.
but i will not relent. i will reach you. because i am the sea. and i will continue to love you no matter what.

WARM

so heavenly so, you are an angel. i have discovered you in the bright heat of nervousness and doubt. you, my love, are everything i want to name when i'm staring at the moon. you are bright spring days, wrapping you up and teetering on the edge of too hot, but still giving you warmth. your love is like watching as the sun fades away and creates a bright glow of the moon, englufing you in the dark comfort. you are the purest form of love. and i am more than honored to experience it. i love you, and i will love you time and time again.